Making my way downtown
Walking fast
Faces pass
And I'm home bound

Staring blankly ahead
Just making my way
Making a way
Through the crowd

And I need you
And I miss you
And now I wonder....

If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass me by
'Cause you know I'd walk
A thousand miles
If I could
Just see you
tonight

It's always times like these
When I think of you
And I wonder
If you ever
Think of me

'Cause everything's so wrong
And I don't belong
Living in your
Precious memory

'Cause I need you
And I miss you
And now I wonder....

If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass me by
'Cause you know I'd walk
A thousand miles
If I could
Just see you
tonight

And I, I
Don't want to let you know
I, I
Drown in your memory
I, I
Don't want to let this go
I, I
Don't....

Making my way downtown
Walking fast
Faces pass
And I'm home bound

Staring blankly ahead
Just making my way
Making a way
Through the crowd

And I still need you
And I still miss you
And now I wonder....

If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass us by
'Cause you know I'd walk
A thousand miles
If I could
Just see you...

If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass me by
'Cause you know I'd walk
A thousand miles
If I could
Just see you
If I could
Just hold you
Tonight 

-Vanessa Carlton- 

Wish!

I wish I could hurt you the way you hurt me. But I know if I had the chance, I wouldn't do that.

Questions

Lots of question inside my head.
Don't know what the answers, don't even know how to find the answers...

1. Kalau kebaikan selalu menang, kenapa masih ada orang yang buat jahat? Bukannya mereka pasti akan kalah? Emang kejahatan akan selalu kalah? Yakin?

2. Berapa kali seseorang harus dikasih kesempatan jika dia berbuat salah?

3. Kenapa ada kalimat 'Kesabaran ada batasnya' ? Bukannya kesabaran harusnya tanpa batas....

4. Katanya cinta itu indah, tapi kenapa dalam setiap percintaan pasti ada air mata kesedihan?

5. Kenapa dua orang yang berbeda bisa mencintai satu orang yang sama?? Setiap orangkan udah punya jodohnya masing-masing.

6. Bagaimana cara mencintai dengan benar? Kalau udah benar, kenapa masih ada rasa sakit?

7. Dalam satu tubuh manusia, kenapa suka ada jawaban yang berbeda antara otak dan perasaan?

8. Jika otak dan perasaan bicara pada saat yang bersamaan, mana yang harus dipilih?

9. Kenapa harus ada pertemuan, jika ujung-ujungnya ada perpisahan?

10. Kenapa ada cinta tanpa pernihakan? Dan ada juga pernikahan tanpa cinta?

11. Apa yang paling penting dalam hidup ini? Uang, karir, cinta, atau apa? Bukannya ujung-ujungnya setiap manusia pasti meninggal? Apa gunanya semua itu?

12. Kenapa ada sakit yang ga bisa disembuhin? Apa gunanya obat dan dokter? Bukannya mereka diciptakan untuk menyembuhkan.

13. Kalau jujur itu baik, kenapa kadang kita ngerasa sakit saat kita dengar kejujuran?

14. Ga perduli seberapa banyak kebaikan yang kita buat, pasti kebanyakan manusia akan lebih mengingat satu kesalahan kecil yang mungkin kita buat tanpa sengaja. Kenapa?

15. Kenapa harus ada rasa takut?

16. Apa yang terjadi sesudah kita meninggal?

17. Apakah kamu tetap mencintai saya besok?

18. Apakah kamu bisa jawab pertanyaan diatas?

The Wedding (Mr&Mrs. Alvin)

“Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful.There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around.You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again.  Colours seem brighter and more brilliant.Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face.In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible.You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end.  Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile.Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.” 

― Bob Marley

Happy Wedding Yosi And Alvin

Korea Panorama, 4-10 November 2013

-Petite Franch-

-Nami Island-

-Seorak Mountain-

-Everland-

-Lunch at Britania Cruise-

-Koreana Hotel-

              

-Jeongdongjin-

-To be Continue-

Dear Someone...

You have to know this..

I don't want to be with you forever.
I wouldn't cry if you walked away..
I don't like you....

Yeah,

I don't want to be with you forever, I need to be with you..

I wouldn't cry if you walked away, I would die..

I don't like you, but I love you...

(I'm a) PENGUIN

Well, it's been almost a year...
Huaaa.. I miss you, my Big Black Horse....
So many stories I wanna share in this blog, but not now ya. I'll write it next time.
Now I wanna share an article about Penguin :)
Yeah, there are some of men bilang Penguin is like me... Haha, the way I walk, run, or maybe karna mungilnya.. First, I feel a bit annoying sih, but Penguin is not bad too,mereka lucu.. So I take it as a complimentlah :) Hehe
Apalagi, pas baca artikel ini.. So... YEAH! I'M A PENGUIN!!
Enjoy this article, loves!

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Gagasan mengambil pelajaran cinta dari penguin mungkin terdengar sedikit gila. Tapi jika Anda pernah melihat atau mempelajari penguin, Anda akan melihat kunci setia dari binatang asal Kutub ini.
Inilah yang bisa diikuti dari pinguin, seperti dilansir Allwomenstalk, Kamis (16/5/2013), 

1. Komunikasi adalah kunci suatu hubungan

Anda mungkin bisa membaca semua buku tentang  cara berkomunikasi dengan pasangan di perpustakaan. Tapi faktanya sangat sederhana. 
Seekor penguin selalu berkomunikasi dengan sejenisnya sepanjang waktu, sama seperti manusia. Dan melalui obrolan ini seseorang bisa mengenal lebih dekat dengan pasangannya.
Komunikasi adalah jantung dari setiap hubungan yang baik. Hal ini akan menjaga hubungan Anda hidup dan merupakan pelajaran terbaik dari penguin.

2. Bertanggung Jawab

Penguin memiliki tahap kehidupan yang berbeda juga seperti manusia seperti bertelur dan memiliki anak. Dalam masa itu, penguin sangat membutuhkan banyak perawatan dan perhatian. 
Ketika anak tersebut mulai tumbuh juga anak Penguin belajar untuk mengembangkan sayapnya, dan bertanggung jawab dan produktif. Bagi penguin, belajar bukan hanya untuk diri sendiri tapi juga belajar tidak mencuri dan menghindari predator. Manusia juga mengalami fase yang sama. Yang semestinya dipelajari yaitu menjadi dewasa dan bertanggung jawab.

3. Menghargai pasangan

Penguin bisa menghabiskan sebagian besar waktunya dengan pasangan. Dan benar-benar baru terpisah ketika binatang ini memiliki tanggung jawab yang besar, seperti berburu makanan di musim dingin. Penguin juga sering meninggalkan keluarganya untuk mencari makan. Tapi binatang lucu ini bisa menghargai pasangan ketika dirinya dibutuhkan. Sama dengan manusia bukan?

4. Ekspresif mengungkapkan cinta

Penguin diperkirakan sering mengungkapkan cinta pada pasangannya. Beberapa seruan dinilai peneliti, diidentifikasi sebagai ucapan 'I love you' dan dapat didengar sepanjang hari. 
Memberikan kepercayaan dalam suatu hubungan, akan membuat pasangan merasa dicintai. Ekspresi cinta juga dibutuhkan pasangan dalam setiap hubungan. Coba saja beritahu orang-orang yang Anda cintai kalau Anda mencintainya, lihat apa yang akan Anda terima.

5. Jaga Keluarga

Ketika air membeku, penguin selalu membersihkan dirinya dan keluarganya. Binatang ini selalu memperlihatkan perlindungan terhadap keluarganya. 
Belajarlah dari binatang ini sehingga Anda akan merasa jauh lebih bahagia.

6. Setia

Mungkin ada yang berpikir kalau penguin itu hanya binatang yang bisa saja berganti pasangan dan kita tidak mengetahuinya. Tapi percaya atau tidak, penguin adalah salah satu binatang yang paling setia. Penguin bisa membedakan pasangan dan teman-temannya.

7. Menikmati hidup dengan cinta

Salah satu pelajaran cinta paling terkenal dari penguin adalah kemampuannya untuk mengagumi hidup dan saling memberi yang indah pada pasangan.
Jika Anda tidak percaya, lihat gaya hidup Penguin yang selalu terlihat senang, lucu dan menggemaskan. Padahal binatang ini hidup di tempat yang sangat ekstrem dan dikelilingi predator mematikan.  

Source: http://health.liputan6.com/read/587440/luar-biasa-penguin-ajarkan-arti-mencintai-pasangan-dan-kesetiaan

May 2013...

Long time no write in this blog..

Well, I have two stories to tell you.

First, is a bad one. Not bad actually, because he's with God now.

Yeah, my friend has passed away..

I'm out of words. He's a good man, the funny one.

So sad. The last words i will say is just, 

"See you in another life Pak Alfons Hermawan. I miss you.."

And the second story is a good one!
I got a birthday surprise from my team..
I'm so happy! It was so good. SO GOOD!
Thanks team..
I love you all!

Great Marriage Story!

My husband is an engineer.And i love him for his steady nature, and i love the warm feeling when i lean against his broad shoulder.

3 years of courtship and now, 2 years into marriage, i would have to admit, and i'm getting tired of it.

The reason of me loving him before transformed into the cause of all my restlessness.

 

I am a sentimental woman and extremely sensitive.

I yearn for a romantic moments, like a little girl yearning for a candy. And my husband is  my completely opposite. His lack of sensitivity, and the inability of bringing romantic moments into our marriage life has disheartened me about love.

One day, i finally decided to tell him my decision..

I wanted divorce...

"Why?", he asked me, shocked.

"I'm tired, there are no reasons for everything in the world..", I answered.

He kept silent the whole night, seems to be in a deep thought with a lighted cigarette all the times.

My feeling of disappointed increased, here was a man who can't even express his predicament, what else can i hope from him?

And finally he asked me,"What can i do to change your mind?"

It's hard to change somebody's personality, and i guess i have started losing faith in him.

then i looking deep into his eyes, and i slowly answered,"Here is the question, if you can answer and convince my heart, i will change my mind.. Let's say i want a flower located on the face of mountain cliff, and we both are sure that picking up the flower will cause your death, will you do it for me?"

Then he answered,"I will give you the answer tomorrow"

And my hope just sank after listened his response..

I woke up the next morning to find him, but he's gone, and i saw a piece of paper with his scratchy handwriting, and a glass of milk on the dinning table..

Here's the letter..

My Dear, i wouldn't pick that flower for you, but please allow me to explain the reason further..

This first line was already breaking my heart. Then i continued reading... 

When you use the computer you always mess up the software programs, and you cry in front of the screen, so i have to save my finger so i can help you to restore the programs..

You always leave the house with the house key behind, so i have to save my legs to rust home to open the door for you.

You love travelling but always lose your way in a new city, so i have to save my eyes to show you the way. 

You always cramps whenever your 'good friend' comes every month, so i have to save my palms, so i can calm your cramps in your tummy. 

You like to stay indoors and i worry you will be infected by infantile autism, so i have to save my mouth to tell you some jokes and stories to cure your boredom.

You always stare at the computer, and that's not good for your eyes, so i have to save my eyes, so then when we grow old, i can help you clip your nails, and help to remove those annoying white hairs.. And i can also hold your hand while strolling down the beach, as you enjoy the sunshine and the beautiful sand.. And tell you the color of the glow on your young face..

My dear, unless i am sure that there's someone who loves you more than i do..

I couldn't  not pick that flower yet, and die...

My tears fell on the letter, and blurred the ink of his handwriting. And i continued reading.

Now, that you are finished reading my answer, and if you are satisfied, please open the door for me.. I am standing outside bringing your favorite bread and fresh milk..

I rush pull open the door and saw his anxious face, clutching tightly with his hands, the milk bottle and loaf of bread..
Now i am very sure that no one will ever love me as much as he does, and i have decided to leave the flower alone... 

That's life and love.
Love shows up in all forms, even very small and cheeky forms, it has never been a model, it could be the most dull and boring form.
Flowers and romantic moments are only used and appear on the surface of the relationship.
Under all this the pillar of true love stands, and that's our life..
Love, not words win arguments.

Source: http://academictips.org/ 

I've Learned (A Lesson Learned)

I've learned,

That you can not make someone love you, all you can do is be someone who can be loved. And the rest is up to them.

I've learned,

No matter how much i care, some people just don't care back.

I've learned,

No matter how good a friend is, they are going to hurt you every once in a while, and you will always forgive them for that.

I've learned,

It's not about what you have in your life, but about who you have in your life that counts.

I've learned,

That you should never ruin an apology with an excuse.

I've learned,

That you shouldn't compare yourself to the best others can do.

I've learned,

You can do something in an instant and that will give you heartache for a life.

I've learned,

It's taking me a long time to be a person i want to be.

I've learned,

That you should leave you loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time you see them.

I've learned,

That we are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel.

I've learned,

That either you control your attitude or it controls you.

I've learned,

Money is a lousy way of keeping score.

I've learned,

Sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you're down, will be the ones who help you to get up.

I've learned,

Sometimes when i'm angry i have the right reason to angry, but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.

I've learned,

That true friendship grows, even over the longest distance. And some goes for true love.

I've learned,

That your family don't always be there for you, It may seem funny, but people you aren't related to can take care of you and love you and teach you to trust people again. Families aren't always biological.

I've learned,

That it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others. Sometimes you need to learn to forgive yourself.

I've learned,

That no matter how bad your heart is broken, the world doesn't stop for your grief.

I've learned,

That our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, bu we are responsible for who we become.

I've learned,

That just because two people argue, doesn't mean they don't love each other, and just because two people don't argue, doesn't mean they love each other.

I've learned,

That two people can see exact the same thing but see something totally different.

I've learned,

That even when you think you have no more to give, but when you see your lovely ones cry you'll find the strength to help them.

I've learned,

The people you care the most in yourlife will be taken from you soon.

I've learned,

The people will forget what you said, and people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel.

-Omer B. Washington

Because I Love You.. (Military and His Girl)

One day...
Young guy and young girl fell in love.
But the guy came from poor family and the girl's parent were not too happy. So the young man decided to not only to court the girl but to court her parent as well.
In time the girl's parent saw that he was a good man and was worthy of their daughter's hand.

But one day, there was another problem.. The man was a a soldier.
Soon war broke up and he was being sent overseas for a year.
The weak before he left the man knelt on his knee and ask his lady love, "Will you marry me?"
She wiped a tear and said yes. And they were engaged and agreed that when he got back in one year they would get married.

But tragedy struck a few days after he left...
The girl had a major vehicular accident. It was a head-on collision. 
When she woke up in the hospital, she saw her father and her mother cried. Immediately she knew there was  something wrong.
She later found out she suffered brain injury. The part of her brain that controlled her face muscles was damage. Her once lovely face was not disfigure.
She cried when she saw her face in the mirror. "Yesterday i was beautiful, but now i am a monster", she said. And her body was also covered with so many ugly wounds.

Right there and then, she decided to release her fiance from their promises. She know he wouldn't want her anymore. So she would forget him and never see him anymore.

For one year, the soldier wrote many letters, but she didn't answer.
He phoned her many times but she didn't answer.

After one year, her mother came to his room and announced, "He's back from the war"
The girl shouted, "NO!!! PLEASE DON'T TELL HIM ABOUT ME! DON'T SAY I'M HERE!!"
The mother said, "He's getting married" and gave the girl a wedding invitation.

The girl's heart sank. She knows she still love him-but she should forget him now.
with great sadness she opens the invitations and saw her name on it. Confuse.. Then she ask, "What is this??"
Then the young man entered her room with a bouquet of flowers. He knelt beside her and asked, "Will you marry me?"
The girl covered her face with her hands and said,"I'm ugly.."
The man said, "Without your permission, your mother sent me your photos, and when i saw your photos I realized nothing has changed. You are still the person i fell in love. You are still beautiful as ever.. Because I love you.."

Source: http://academictips.org/

Aku Mencintaimu (Carol Garett & James E. Garett)

Suami Carol tewas dalam kecelakaan mobil tahun lalu. Jim, yang baru berumur lima puluh dua tahun, sedang mengemudikan mobil ke rumah, dari kantornya. Yang menabraknya adalah seorang remaja yang mabuk berat.Jim tewas seketika. Remaja itu masuk ruang gawat darurat, namun tidak sampai dua jam di sana. 

Ironisnya lagi, hari itu hari ulang tahun Carol yang kelima puluh, dan Jim sudah membeli dua tiket pesawat ke Hawaii. Ia ingin memberi kejutan untuk istrinya. Tapi ia justru tewas gara-gara seorang pengemudi mabuk. 

"Bagaimana kau bisa mengatasi itu?" tanyaku pada Carol, setahun kemudian.

Mata Carol basah oleh air mata. Kupikir aku sudah salah bicara, tapi dengan lembut ia meraih tanganku dan berkata, "Tidak apa-apa. Aku ingin menceritakan padamu. Ketika aku dan Jim menikah, aku berjanji bahwa setiap pagi, sebelum dia berangkat, aku mesti mengatakan bahwa aku mencintainya. Dia juga membuat janji yang sama. Akhirnya hal itu menjadi semacam gurauan di antara kami. Ketika anak-anak mulai lahir, sulit untuk menepati janji itu. Aku ingat aku suka lari ke mobilnya sambil berkata, 'Aku mencintaimu'.. Dengan gigi terkatup rapat kalau aku sedang marah. Kadang aku mengemudi ke kantornya untuk menaruh catatan kecil di mobilnya.
Hal itu menjadi tantangan yang lucu. 
Banyak kenangan kami tentang kebiasaan mengucapkan cinta ini setiap hari, sepanjang kehidupan perkawinan kami."

Carol melanjutkan, "Pada pagi Jim meninggal, ia menaruh kartu ulang tahun di dapur, lalu pergi diam-diam ke mobilnya. Kudengar mesin mobilnya dinyalakan. Jangan coba-coba kabur, ya, pikirku. Aku lari dan menggedor jendela mobilnya, sampai ia membukanya, dan berkata 'Hari ini, pada ulang tahunku yang kelima puluh, Bapak James E. Garrett, aku, Carol Garrett, ingin menyatakan bahwa aku mencintaimu.'


"Karena itulah aku bisa tabah menghadapi peristiwa itu. Karena aku tahu bahwa kata-kata terakhir yang kuucapkan pada Jim adalah 'Aku mencintaimu.'" 

:)

December

It's a month of joy, love, laugh, candles, carols, and many more..
Yes it's december.. It means Christmas is near babyyyy..
Aaah, i will always love christmas. Always!

Cotton Fever

Voila!! Say hi to my baby cotton :)